BlaMe_On_me
here i am, feeling demotivated, sitting in this lovely ‘crib’ in ipba trying to express my thoughts in words. haha.. i admit it’s very hard. that’s why my blogs are always short. my thoughts are vague, muted and dull. u will notice the way i haphazardly write this post shows how many things there are in my brain that’s trying to couldn’t be understood by people. maybe it’s because individuals construct their own unique knowledge. maybe it’s my inability to make people understand. i think i should blame myself for being such a crap. things would be easier if i’d changed. but i’m still the same old me. still nagging n complaining when i can do something more meaningful rite now. haha.. i think this is how smokers feel. smoking’s bad yet addictive. and this affects ppl around them. however, deep inside they wanna change. they know it’s bad. ex-smokers got rid of their habits not just in one day. some took years and decades. Nobody knows when, but the time will come. i hope i will still breathe when my time comes. hahaha.. in the mean time i’ll just try to be thankful and be happy about my life.
